Disappointment is not a new occurrence, nor will it ever be.
But every time it happens,
boy does it feel like it.
It’s as if it hits just as hard every single time.
You think you are prepared, but you never are.
It comes straight out of left field.
And you’re caught off guard each time.
Unlucky for us, the blow never softens.
There is disappointment in situations.
Disappointment in places, things, objects.
Or for me, today, in people.
Irritation and annoyance and even anger (stay away from that one) are all pretty common emotions, I would say.
But disappointment is far different.
It’s the odd one out.
Tell me if I’m speaking too freely here,
but dealing with being irritated, or annoyed, or angered is almost routine.
We are irritated.
We’re over it.
And I’m not saying disappointment sticks around for any longer,
it really doesn’t, I guess.
But I guess what I’m saying is,
Disappointment leaves you with an open pit in the bottom of your stomach.
Openness you don’t really know how to deal with. It’s like your body never learns. Because each disappointment is never quite the same.
It always stings differently.
Anger and annoyance are all too familiar.
Fires hiss and crackle and then they burn out.
Pits… they just kind of sit there.
And they fill with little bites of irritation, annoyance, and anger. All those things together, stewing and simmering, but never really cooking.
Because you’re just too cold.
Now that you’ve lost your appetite all together,
Let’s move on.
This is what I have to say about it, and then I continue on with my life.
(See Lesson #2. The show goes on, people)
Along with a lot of other terrible things in life.
It hurts, and you feel betrayed, and you feel like you probably won’t ever trust them again.
But the best thing you can do is forgive them for being an idiot.
Forgive them for being a complete butt-head and for being inconsiderate and slimy and back-handed.
Forgive them for whatever they are guilty of.
Because you have probably been all of these things too.
And that’s the best thing you can do.
It’s the only thing you can do.