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Lesson #326: You’re never “just” anything.

6/11/15.

Today at my internship, I went on my first two shoots: an interview and a red carpet event. I’m not allowed to mention specifics thanks to “the man,” but I’ll say what I can. Here’s how it went.

I had an absolutely incredible time. It was so awesome being in an environment that had such high energy and excitement, but was so relaxed at the same time. It felt like home. There was a lot of waiting and then running and then waiting. I loved watching everything and everyone get set up, observing people doing their job, being a peasant in the presence of greatness, and just experiencing how everything runs before and after a shoot. It’s amazing, and even more of a complex, down-packed science than I originally thought.

End dreamy rant.

As we were about to enter the back room to set up for the interview, the friendly lady who runs (the place that shall not be named) passed me. We had talked earlier, so I smiled at her and said hello again.

“You keeping busy?” I asked.

She laughed. “Always! You go on yet?”

“Not yet, soon though,” I said.

Then she said something along the lines of: “It must be great to be on-screen talent!”

If I could turn red—I would have. I laughed instead.

“No no no, I’m not the on-screen talent!” I pointed to the host from E! News. “That’s her. I’m just the intern!”

Then the most embarrassing thing happened.

Is there a name for second hand embarrassment from someone else, but towards you?

Well.

This woman SCREAMS,

(I’m not exaggerating)

“—JUST AN INTERN? JUST AN INTERN?!?!”

I get quiet. I have no idea where this is going, and the producer, the cameramen, and the host are all standing right behind me. She’s screaming (loudly but lovingly) about me being “just” an intern—which were my words—but totally and completely not in the way that she’s repeat-screaming them in this low-key, dimlight place.

“YOU’RE NEVER JUST AN INTERN!”

…not that i doubted it. I know I make a contribution, and I like to make a contribution. But I also know my place, and I diddddn’t exactly need this lady screaming it to make it look like I didn’t.

She proceeds to yell—

“YOU’RE NEVER JUST ANYTHING!”

And this was the moment I knew my lesson of the day.

Even though I much rather would have learned this lesson a little bit more quietly and maybe, like, not right in front of four very important people, she makes a point.

In case you didn’t already know it,

you’re never just anything.

You are important to this world, and someone needs you in some way, shape, or form.

Whatever puzzle you’re apart of—it’s not complete without you.

Whether it’s work, your family, your school, or your friends.

The world needs you.

So today, know this.

You’re never just.

You’re you.

You are.

Day 326.

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Lesson #291: What I learned when I just went for it.

5/8/15.

Whether you’re uncomfortable with stepping out of your comfort zone, scared you might fail, or embarrassed by the lack of things you know:

1. Start somewhere.

You don’t and won’t get experience if you never put yourself out there and physically go after what you want. Seth Kingsley, one of the head writers and producers at E!, emailed me this after I sent him my resume:

You rock. I love students who know what they want to do and go after it! I talk to kids all the time who say they want to be writers but don’t write. Or aspiring actors who don’t act. You, on the other hand, are getting things done! So keep it up.

I promise you, I didn’t realize that what I was doing was special. I still don’t. I’m just truly doing what I love to do. But what Seth said inspired me to think about my life and pursuing my dreams even more. Actually—it helped me today in my attitude towards tackling what seemed like something I didn’t know how to do or think I could do: just go for it.

A few months ago, a friend from high school saw my final video project that I talked about in a previous lesson, and asked me to film her wedding. My response:

“…………You know I’ve never done that before right?”

She told me she knew. But she believed in what I could do.

Honestly, I was scared shitless. All the way up until today, and even all the way through the wedding, I was terrified.

All I could keep thinking was: “Am I doing this right? Do I look stupid? Am I getting the right things?” 

My lesson of the day isn’t “how to stop nervous thoughts” or “overcome them” or ‘”solve them.” Oh, no. When you’re nervous, you’re nervous. When you’re scared, you’re scared.

But as you’ve probably heard before,

do it afraid.

Do it not knowing what you’re doing or if it’s right. Do it with questions. Do it with doubt.

But do it with belief that that you can get through it, that you will learn from it, and that it’s your first step towards something.

2.If you want something, don’t settle for not getting it.

Gonna be real for a moment.

Sometimes I just have to hope and pray the whole world doesn’t read this blog.

Tonight, I also met a really attractive and nice guy. And we ended up kissing.

This is completely not like me.

No. You don’t understand.

If an attractive person even looks in my direction, I’m like: “What are words?”

But tonight, I decided that it wasn’t going to end with me going home and wishing we had kissed. It was going to happen.

It was somewhat obvious that we might be into each other. And then it became blatantly obvious. We talked all night, but then it started to get late so I said bye. I looked back at him and walked really slow. He laughed at me from down the hallway and caught up with me to walk me out. When we got to the door, we awkwardly stood there for a minute and then said bye again and went our separate ways. I got in my car and was like, “What? What? No. I’m not leaving until—no.” So I seriously got out of the car, went back in, pretended I left something (classic), found him, and made him walk me to car.

You know how it went from there.

Anyway.

This is really awkward. I’m literally posting this on the internet.

But basically, what I’m telling you is this.

IF YOU WANT IT, GO GET IT.

Period.

The end.

Thank you, today, for teaching me a great lesson, and helping me realize that I have way more guts than I give myself credit for.

It all starts by—well—starting.

So whatever it is,

go after it.

Start by starting, and don’t back down until you get what you want.

Day 291.